I still make fun of that

People who struggle with mental health and social skills as if I'm not failing school and myself just because of that! I come into school and study and organize stuff and I've always thought it would be just me, it wasn't! Groups and teams were formed and I seriously can't do anything about it, or I'm just lazy! My grades are not high, my conversation skills are not strong, I'll be walking to the tournament that includes something I'm good at or at least familiar with it and still tremble while getting there! When they reveal the results, my name will not be there, not even at the bottom! Why did I decide it was good to get there and take tests just to fail again and again! Of course I can always lower my standards to the average but that is very undignified and troublesome! Wah wah wah!