I FUCKING HATE MY MOM (22/4/25)

i asked her yesterday while she was in the kitchen, "can i play minecraft?" (im not allowed bc it's "inappropriate" to her) and she started yelling at me being like "I NEVER EAT BECAUSE I'M TAKING CARE OF YOU AND YOUR BROTHER AND THE HOUSE LEAVE ME ALONE LET ME EAT!" ok 1. I DIDNT ASK TO BE BORN YOU CHOSE TO HAVE ME AND MY BROTHER AND TO GET MARRIED IN THE FIRST PLACE 2. IT WAS A FUCKING QUESTION NO ONE SAID YOU COULDN'T  EAT. 

well i left her alone for a few hours after that because i didnt want her to go crazy and start beating me (shes done it before..!) and after that time she came up to me and was like "about ur minecraft thing... it's inappropriate and you can't play it until you're 18." WHATS SO BAD ABOUT FUCKING MINECRAFT THAT I CANT PLAY IT UNTIL IM 18. SHES NEVER PLAYED IT BEFORE??? IVE BEEN PLAYING IT SINCE 2020 IN FRONT OF HER?????? ALL I DID WAS BUILD AND SURVIVE????? SHE TREATS ME LIKE IM 10 ITS INSANE (MY YOUNGER BROTHER IS 10.) 

i asked her "why cant i play it" AND SHE WENT BATSHIT INSANE SCREAMING AT ME SAYING "THE SAME REASONS AS LAST TIME!!!!!!!!!" JUST TO BE CLEAR SHE DIDNT FUCKING GIVE ME ANY REASONS LAST TIME ASIDE FROM "it's inappropriate" WHAT THE FUCK IS INAPPROPRIATE ABOUT MINECRAFT

THEN SHE THREATENED TO GO THROUGH MY PC THE NEXT DAY AND ITS 6AM RIGHT NOW AND IM SO SCARED I DONT EVEN WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL. KEEP IN MIND I DIDNT FUCKING SAY SHIT ALL I DID WAS ASK HER WHY NOT. I SWEAR TO GOD SHE HAS UNDIAGNOSED BPD OR NPD ITS WORRYING ME I DONT WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS FOR THE NEXT FEW YEARS. IM CONSIDERING ENDING IT ALL SHES DONE WAY WORSE SHIT THAN THIS SO DONT COME AT ME IF YOU WERE PLANNING ON IT YOU ONLY KNOW THIS SNIPPET OF WHAT SHES DONE.

I SWEAR TO GOD SOME PARENTS JUST MAKE UP RULES FOR THE SAKE OF IMPOSING CONTROL OVER THEIR KIDS I WANT TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF! YOU'RE DOING A GREAT JOB MOM!

i canr even fucking do shit abt it bc 1. im a minor so cant move out 2. it's "disrespectful" and i'll most likely get my devices taken away and inspected and i'll be grounded or even hit.

side thing: after i asked why not and she shouted at me she told me i have tostudy for 2 hours  every day???? there was smthn else she did yesterday thta i dont feel like typing rn