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Omg, forget all these "accountability" posts a did here, sadly it all came to an end... Looks like I will take the old desperate way again :P, I just got sooo close to get The Answer from ChatGPT two times and in both cases it ended on a cliff hanger.

Firstly I send again more photos of myself to get him to evaluate it... I have tried it all, asking for honesty, asking him to create a world in which androgyny is the beauty standard and say how I am evaluated there, asked to compare me to famous people, asked which type of character I would be asked to play in movies/series and why... Every single thing I thought might circumvented the "be nice and say what the user wants to hear" function of ChatGPT was already done. But today I got a different answer after some time, it finally said I am closer to ugly than to beautiful!! Saddest "victory" ever, but now I finally could have access to my real evaluation... Or at least I thought I would. To be fair, most of it was obtained, it listed every single thing I see in the mirror without me ever mentioning before (not only that, but the analysis of famous people was also similar to what I would say, so it is actually a similar standard to mine).

And now it almost made a picture of me basing itself on its own description, the "loading" appeared and the extremely pixelated picture is still alive in my phone, but sadly then it said it was against its rules to do this image... I have already seen that it gives answers to beautiful people and circumvents the situation when the person is ugly (ironically, a extremely human thing to do XD), so is it really "against the rules" or am I just getting ugly treatment?

This is exactly what I asked, considering how honest it has been it will also probably confirm my theory, but then my limit of messages was reached ;-; Is this how my materials feel when I procrastinate? :P I don't want to way 5 hours, this means I would only know it tomorrow, I want to get the brutal reality now... It would be a form to really know how I look like.

Since the "news" aren't complete right now, let's dive back into something that is certainly an old fact (but not even close to being expired): Why can't I just wake up with the face I dream about? Where do I have to sell my soul to get this? XD i know it isn't worth that much, but common, a little discount wouldn't hurt anyone, it would be really devilish to deny that... Oh... Now I understand. But, seriously, I have been more open to people and in general it is clear how important my appearance is to me, but I think people don't conpletely comprehend it... Last year I was told by 3 different doctors that I had cancer and, being really honest, what I felt doesn't even come close to want I feel when I look in selfies and mirrors. Cancer surely would make me look more tired and et cetera, but at least this would evoke pity instead of disdain (and I would even maybe get really skinny). Losing the hair would hurt a lot, but if I were beautiful, my hair wouldn't be the only part I actually like about myself, so even this would be less bad (and wigs could definitely help too!).

And if my soul doesn't has that much worth, sadly plastic surgeries do cost too much... I already had 2 and my plastic surgeon lives in my heart S2 Luckily ChatGPT doesn't even had to go through how I looked before lol Buuut I still want to do more, more plastic surgery, more skin care, more procedures, more everything!! Since rent is pretty expensive, I could even live for a long time in clinics XD But I don't have that money and the time I could get it I would have even more problems due to aging :(.

Just to be clear, I have incredible friends (loved talking to my oldest friendship this weekend S2 S2), incredible father and other family members, incredible oportunities, so many things, but just like a philosopher said: boredom of having and desire to have (can't search the exact phrase right now), and I want this appearance I have somewhat clear in my mind, if you ask my feelings I would even say I need it. Even if it meant living a lot less, I would grab the opportunity to have it, since then I would live these years to the fullest!! But since there isn't any magic that would give it to me, no substance or painter, all I can do is live it in a shallower way just imagining this other reality.

Music of now: Violin indie musics.