"Real or not real?"

I run around the forest. My breath is wheezing away and my legs are on fire, but I cannot stop. I eventually attempt to hide, but I must jump up and keep sprinting away. The beast has found me again, after a few months of solitude. I don't know how it tracked my scent again. I worked on my smell. I ran far away into my bush of a brain. But still, motivated by its relentless hunger, it smelled me, and wants to devour me. 

I thought I was free from this feeling, this hole of hatred that I dug myself out of. But I can never let my guard down. I can't let the thoughts come back and ruin what I rebuilt with all my sacrifice. I don't think I'll ever truly be free. The phantom shackles will forever remain. 

Easter is tomorrow and spring break has unfortunately ended already for me :( I'm not excited to go back to school at all. Thinking about it already gives me a headache. I dyed my hair, attempted at least. Didn't go well as I have insanely dark brown hair and I knew the purple wouldn't make a dent, but I can only hope. I'm thinking of bleaching and getting purple highlights some time soon. A couple of days ago I got a haircut and it wasn't really what I expected, but I've been desperately needing one for months as my layers were severely overgrown. I now have a cute round curly bob with bangs that crown my face, although they are shorter than I wanted. I bought TBOSAS yesterday and I'm already on chapter 4. I'm super obsessed with The Hunger Games series, like it's always on my mind and I really love it so so sooooo much. I love the commentary and the world building and especially Katniss. She's my all time favorite fictional character and she's so personally relatable that it feels she was inspired by me lol. Girlfriend is also barely reading the series for me even though she never reads and I couldn't be more happier. I need someone to discuss the series with. I also need to go to bed as I gotta wake up early to get ready for Easter. Still don't know what I'll wear.