Anything and everything

I didn't feel like writing yesterday.  At work I made a minor mistake that was heavily judged.  I felt defensive.  I just apologized but internally I was going over and over it in my head.  I had to remind myself that I'm actually fine and I don't need to feel that way when I'm criticized.  That said, I wish there was more forgiveness for mistakes at my work, especially if they are small and don't really affect anything, but instead it's like they tally up every little thing you do wrong and keep holding it against you, even if you learned from it and improved.  At my company, they treat you as if you are your mistakes.  It's so toxic.  I never want to be like that or think that way about anyone.  I think part of being on a team should be believing the best about each other and having faith that each person is doing the best job they can.

Today I went to an Easter celebration at church, and then strolled around the waterfront in Vancouver.  The street market was going on and there were a lot of people.  I saw a booth selling lassi drinks that were video game themed.  I found a spot in the sun down by the water.  An older lady with a cane sat down next to me and just started talking to me about anything and everything.  She was really sweet, I ended up chatting with her for half an hour or so.  During the conversation, she revealed that she had been feeling down lately.  I sensed that she felt disconnected from her family and bored because she was recovering from surgery so she couldn't go dancing or travel as much as she normally would.  Overall she seemed depressed about getting older.  It was a blessing to be able to help by just listening to her and giving her some much needed company.  I was by myself too, so she also helped me, though she probably didn't realize it.  I'm glad I decided to go for that walk.  

Then I had a picnic in the park for dinner.  It was kind of windy so I had to wear a sweater even though it's a sunny day.  I finished the book I've been reading.  Looking for another one to start.  I started playing Dragon Quest I, it's really cute so far.

I have to wake up early tomorrow because I'm going out of town, so I'll probably turn in early tonight.  See you next time