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I'm scared of a lot of things. Abandonment, the dark, large dogs... one of these fears is not being accepted.
I'm really scared. Of course I won't disclose where I live, but my parents have been thinking of moving to America. I don't know which state. And you know what state America's in currently... (this is a play on words please congratulate me) with the minion ruling it... I don't know much about politics, since it gives me anxiety, but I know that this guy is a CONVICTED FELON??? Transphobic and shit too. So if they make being trans illegal in the U.S, and we're moving to the U.S,,, WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO!??!?!?!? It's not final yet, the moving thing. Maybe I'll stay here after all. I live in a queerphobic household so it's not really like i can express these concerns to my lovely mother (sarcasm).
What if I get doxxed or something online for being trans? What if my parents find out and disown me? What if I'm not even trans and I'm faking it to fit in? I don't know what to think, and I'm so scared. My head hurts now.
God, what I'd give to be a cisgender male. I hate everything about myself. My body doesn't line up with who I really am. I just want a pretty masculine voice, and short fluffy hair, and people to call me sir in public. I hope that if I'm alive by the time I'm an adult I'll be able to go on T and live with someone I really love.
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Nate
hey man, im a trans man from the us, and i get it its rough out here. idk how old you are but you remind me a lot of myself when i was 15/16 and i was first realizing i was trans. i know how it feels to worry about "faking it" and hey, gender is different for everyone man, take some time to really explore that. you're not faking it, you are just learning yourself!
anyway my original point was that it gets better! obviously i can't give you any specifics for your situation, but i know how it feels to be a teenager who didn't think they'd make it past 18, im only 21 but i promise you man it gets better :) just keep on keepin on my brotha
THANK UOU SO MUCH this reads like an older brother comforting their younger sibling ur SO SWEET TYSM
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