i feel so alone

i usually feel alone anyways but i just saw my friend’s stories and she fell asleep next to his boyfriend and i got so so jealous. i know i should be happy for her and i am. it’s just that it gets so lonely that i feel jealous about even the smallest thing. and i know this is all my fault because i can never make relationship work. i guess i’m bound to be alone it’ll just never work out for me. 

plus i was with friends today and we’re like a 5 people group. they formed groups of two people and played games while i was reading a book. i shouldn’t get petty because i was the one to bring a book to the hangout but still.. it was a study date after all. idk man i’m miserable