my diary <3

hi people and welcome to my diary! i will be updating this diary whenever something happens in my life that i feel is worth writing down. i hope some of you can get to relate to the things i write here and know that you're not alone with stuff in your life 

(trigger warning! this diary contains subjects like sm0king and self h*rm)

<3

17/04/2025

this is the first entry on this diary! i dont have anything special to say for today other than that i hope i get used to writing here and i hope someone out there likes reading it ^^

18/04/2025

today im going to my grandmas house to have dinner with my family! but it feels weird. it will be the first time i go to my grandmas house after her funeral. the house has been empty since then. i don't know how people there will be, but i think it will feel emptier than usual.

18/07/2025

hi! long time no see! my life has been a bit messy recently. school has fully sucked and so has my mental health. i try my best always to be more positive, but sometimes that doesnt always work, which i dont think is a bad thing. no one is made to stay happy forever. ive been trying to quit my addiction to vaping with little to no success so far. ive also been in contact with a therapist online. sometimes other old habits kick in too, and theres nothing to be ashamed of. to help get these habits away, ive been discovering myself more, like, who i am as a person and what my fashion sense is. im still figuring things out. figuring yourself out is supposed to take time. some people dont discover who they are until theyre 90. i dont know myself right now, but i know i will some day. maybe not soon, but eventually.