thank you and stay away

deep down i know nobody cares. 2 years ago that made me sad. now, i'm grateful. there is peace and a feeling of safety in knowing that no one's checking for me and nobody cares to look, dig or remember.

i'm not the type of person people connect with - i'm just sort of there. decorative. i've always felt less like a person, more like a lamp.

but i'm glad about it. it suits me just fine to be forgotten and disappear, i can't remember how it felt to see this as bad. i don't experience the world in the way other people do.