Day 20 of BARISTA EVERYWHERE

Don't fucking talk to me today. This might be top 10 worst days ever.  Nobody can take a hint either??? My family, I've had enough, man. I've realized that maybe positivity has its limits and that's okay. I'm an optimist, I could be more optimistic but whenever people talk to me they say "oh moth, always an optimist!" And I'm like HUH??? I guess I don't like when others feel negatively so I feel the need to act more positively around people.

Anyway, I'm taking tomorrow off as well this is the worst day. Actually on the verge of tears right now. I tried to make the most of this shit situation  but I literally couldn't, IM TRYING MY BEST and not every negative situation needs that, it's okay for me to be angry and moody, this is very justified and I don't know why I feel that it isn't sometimes. Me admitting that isn't me giving in or anything, it's okay. Anyway yeah, tomorrow will be another special blog because I can't anymore, I just need to heal right now

NOW! I've cooled off, i removed a sentence where I expressed suicidal ideation. Ik everyone does and I do a lot twitter but I need to be responsible and not say things like that so like out in the open. Did I do my tasks??? No...

Today my power was out for 12 hours yes... 12 hours in a row... yes you read that right. I charged my phone before and had some videos and albums downloaded. I downloaded some underscores albums and since this is a special episode let me drop a review!

Fishmonger - this was interesting! The comparison between this and wallsocket is crazy because like wallsocket is personal but it's also broad, it's a new world that represents underscores but Fishmonger is literally just her pouring her everything out in this experimental and unpolished mess. And I mean mess in a good way. I will say it deals with sensitive topics but if you've heard wallsocket you should be fine. It's very online too when wallsocket is very like grounded in the real world. Very interesting. I wanted to hear fearmonger but it's clearly old and it felt like wrong? Like would she want me to hear this?? I know it's up but does this music represent her?? Then I deleted it and in an interview she said "I don't care lol" so maybe another time.

Card - I did practice some card tricks but not a lot, just like in the background while I watched the underscores interviews I had downloaded and then some videos on books and shit. That's my YouTube... music nerd stuff, card tricks, northernlion and book videos and jerma my glorious Emperor! How could I forget???

Next, the young moth decided to change perspectives because the album they are currently listening to does something similar! Little did they know... this would mess up the format of the blogs. However! The bored moth decided to leave the house!

The search - I went on a search for a tote bag, I literally looked in every single clothing store and I couldn't find it and i saw every 2nd person had one too??? WHERE DO YOU GET IT???? HUH???? Like where???? I've been searching? Do you order online?? Do you thrift because I've been to the thrift stores and I can't find any. Okay in these situations, yk what I do? I drop it and then Tomorrow a tote will be the last thing on my mind and all of a sudden it's gonna fall off the back of a truck. This happens a lot for some reason. I search for things a lot and complain that this country doesn't have it then I drop it and suddenly find it very conveniently. So who cares about doner kebabs or greep or tote bags. Btw that's odd right??? Actually no I won't elaborate, i can't give away my location like that. Forget it, it's nothing!

So the downtrodden moth returned to their natural habitat... the Cafe.

Coffee review + Barista blues - yk what I love? Flavorful coffee. That's the best. The more coffee you drink, the more you learn sweet =/= flavorful. Anyway, i ordered a mocha from this place I frequent. I was a bit scared because their iced mocha was bland but I gave them another chance but warm so if it sucked, I could add sugar but it didn't?? I didn't need to add sugar, the flavor was so rich and the batista was like "you can add sugar if you want" but I didn't have to! She needs to trust herself. 

The story between me and this batista is kinda funny. I was convinced she hated me. She worked at this terrible, expensive, trash Cafe I went to with my sister and she was like very impolite which I really don't mind, she works in customer service, I understand but yeah then I come back two days later with another person. And I'm confused on how the payment system works and the batista from the other day, the one who was impolite she comes out and she's like "you were literally here yesterday and you don't remember????" BUT I FORGOT. Anyway, next week, I go to a cheap Cafe, I haven't eaten there yet but I decide to have coffee and read. I said I'd have a hazelnut latte. They bring it to your table. So I'm reading, my sister studying, the coffee arrives and I'm like engrossed I say "thank you" and she says "do you remember me?" I look up... ITS THE SAME BARISTA WHO WAS IMPOLITE but she seemed much nicer so maybe it's better conditions? Anyway, we're cool, she's always happy to see me, I'm not going to delude myself into thinking she has a crush on me like with the cashier... yikes ancient lore... I will delude myself into believing that I'm her favorite customer and she's my favorite barista. I can't drink there every time though. I'm on a mission to try and review as many coffees in as many restaurants as I can. Tomorrow will be another place...

Okay then I went home... yeah change in perspective again and this is where it all went downhill. I took a nap and woke up at the exact time the power went on... it went off again immediately then I had church and i was hungry and I finally got back and it was on again and also my kettle exploded and everyone was nagging me and it was too much today. I just needed to calm down a bit and I may still need to so if you need me I'm watching NorthernLion and doing card tricks. Good night!