eh | 4/15/25

today i:

• woke up at 7 but didn't get out of bed until 8:30
  
• 9 made breakfast
• further contemplations on my post-high school plans
• 10:30 drove to school with mom and sister
• skipped all classes to study
• 11:00 started studying
• 1:00 took a break
• for the next 2 hours i tried and failed to intermittently resume studying
• 3:30 drove home with mom
  
• 4:00 more room revamping
• 6:30 had to go to church for a rehearsal thingy because i'm getting confirmed soon
• 8:30 ate dinner
• 9:30 listened to many versions of tea for two and even made a playlist.
• 10:00 i write this blog

i think i'm trying to make my room a neat, tidy, but detailed museum for myself. an autobiographical bedroom, basically.

not just like "oh this is my room and you can tell it's mine from all the shit lying around."

i am intending my room to be seen by an audience. it can't be too crowded with junk because then it's uncomfortable... and because most of these items don't represent me. as with an exhibit, i want to hold only items with personal significance.

i want it so that if i suddenly disappeared, people who loved me could walk into this space and know what i lived through and lived for.

this sounds pretty cryptic but it's also gonna be pretty sick in the end.

i'll do a room tour when i'm done, which hopefully will be by the end of this week

:>

anyhow

it's been an otherwise meh productivity day. i seriously studied for maybe like 2.5 hours total today. rest of the day was basically just empty space.

too much empty space waa

i have a band rehearsal tomorrow and i should be learning songs right now but aghh i'm just gonna procrastinate

but then tomorrow i won't have time to study for my exam on thursday and catch up on chem arggg

i WISH i could just fall asleep on demand right now because then i would wake up at 6 and GRIND. which would be really nice. but my body doesn't do that.

curse upon these circadian rhythms

i'm probably gonna watch markiplier because last night i rediscovered the addiction. or maybe i'll do something slightly more meaningful. we'll see.

goodnight spacehey,

- francis t.