I saw a deer in my dream.

I saw a deer in my dream once. I believe that ever since, my life has been cursed somehow. Some people say if you see a deer, that means you'll die soon. Others say it is a positive omen that will bring you good luck. I believe that ever since I was little, after the dream, my life was never the same again. Although, I am not dead, nothing good has come out of most of the things I have done in my life. I somehow managed to ruin everything when things are getting better, causing me to fall right back into the void I was in just deeper.