Gotham season three halfway point

Uhhhhhhh so ill just die i guess?????? Oswald literally tried the first chunk to confess his love for Ed and then decided the best course of action was to KILL his like week long gf????? Granted she was a total wacko bc why the hell was she like that that was so uncomfortable, but like ohh my god. The entire spiral down watching Oswald go totally nuts and still care so much for Ed just for him to be behind it all is so gut wrenching and like idek what to do with myself after their final standoff. HE LITERALLY SAID HE LOVED HIM TO HIS FACE BEFORE HE SHOT HIM. BRO. IM SO AUSHHHHHHHSKSHGGG KILLL MEEEEE WHATTT I HATE THIS SHOWW (ive been spoilered to oblivion so ik he comes back EVENTUALLY but like still thats fucking insane and i will never get over this.) Let me be happyy please