Sotf blankets

So comfortable, so clean! I kept avoiding it since it's so nice and warm, it makes me feel safe and comforted but there is no way I would want to keep it! It's too good, too happy with it, it's fishy, what if I lost it one day! What if it turned old and I slowly slip away from it! It's uncertain, I do not want to have it, just the idea of it gives me false hopes and when I hope and it didn't reach anywhere and be left empty! Isn't that terrifying! I can't love a thing because I'm scared it will turn out to be bad! People keep telling me I'm negative but but that's not it! Being positive and thinking creative and be hardworking genuinely seems impossible for me! Maybe I'm just paranoid, nobody tells me seriously! At the end of the day I'll still come back to the blanket and sleep and my dreams will not appear at all! Hehe