ramblings of a lonely boy

i wanna be taken care of for once. i wanna be held in someone's arms or on their lap. i wanna be the little spoon or be chest to chest (sideways or laying on top) and squeeze each other and have our legs tangled while we try to (impossibly) get closer. i want my hair and back washed gently if i get too fatigued to do it myself. i want my hand held and i wanna walk shoulder to shoulder so they can catch me if i get dizzy and stumble. i wanna watch a movie with four blankets wrapped around us and fall asleep knowing im safe.

oh to be looked at as if im something worth holding carefully, and handled gently instead of being angrily discarded like a shell of a meaningless, emotionless, piece of shit.

i wanna be taken care of. i wanna be told it's all gonna be okay.