spring

i hatee spring i hate pollen i hate heat. i feel like my allergies have gotten significantly worse than before and i spend the entirety of april and may wishing it were over. the only allergy med that seems to work for me is benadryl but if i take that before school ill be knocked out by 1st period. people always talk about seeing the hat man or whatever but ive never experienced that so idfk theyre talking about

i wish i had musical talent, of some kind. singing only when youre alone does not count. could write lyrics or start doing drums or something. i say this as if i cant just go out and try in real life instead of fantasizing about it. i also want to start skateboarding again but its been a long time. i remember part of the reason i stopped was that my legs felt too weak and i had no energy. cant say i miss that part. at least art has always been consistent for me.

every now and then i get shocked by my own strong california accent. i sound like a valley girl like seriously. xoxo