Difficult Months

Well, honestly, I don't know how to feel about all of this. I'll be honest, since June of last year, I've felt this way: unmotivated, disappointed, depressed, and a failure. Since June of 2024, I've felt like I've wasted my entire life, that I've done everything wrong, that I've always been excluded, that I've always been the laughingstock of others. all this would be worse the following month; the last day of classes, days before graduation, (I did not go) a classmate would confess to me that since February, (date I entered that classroom) they talked and made fun of me behind my back .. at that moment, I wanted to hit him, I had that feeling and I still feel it, during those 5 months, I lived mockery, harassment and sexual abuse .. all this matters for the next .. in November of that same year, I was depressed again, I was already somewhat depressed before, but here all that got worse ... at the end of December, I tried to commit suicide, although I could not do it; I was very tall for the height at which I wanted to hang myself, I finished that year depressed and without motivation, then, in January, I was happy, (or so I think) for my "friend", then, in March, I realized that I lived abuse: I became quite depressed, and that same one I spoke with my "friend" about that, she did not believe that it was, she investigated That, and in the end, his response seemed more like he took it as a joke than something serious. (What happened there was that; there were several classmates, and one in particular, who were always groping my perineum and ass, while saying sexual things; one of them was a big fan of doing it.) Since then, I've lost quite a bit of trust in him. Since March, honestly, I've felt really bad. My "friend" hasn't helped me much with it. Really, I don't know what to do... my head hurts. 

I hope this is taken seriously, please let it be so.