Maybe it's not complicated

Not hard or difficult, not scary or threatening, not foolish or selfish, just normal! Everybody else did it that way and it's okay! Okay for other people!! Not me! It doesn't feel enough to be the bare minimum, to respect but not support! People almost never talked about it, and I guess that's how they see it, like how I see them! I do not like that, not at all, not at all!! I'll just have to wait for this to be over and look back at my situation and be like, oh I was just overacting, or something! I'm just disappointed! Bla bla bla!