Entry #74

sometimes it feels like im genuinely just the most hateful person on the planet. i think the only word i say more times in a day than fuck is hate. all i do is just hate on everything. i hate this, i hate that, i hate them, im just so full of hatred. get it ? but yeah. its like i cant ever just be in peace and it genuinely makes me upset which makes me even more hateful and angry. thats all i ever feel. its like an automatic response almost. i could be playful with one of my friends or something, and theyll say something i dont like, instead of being normal and saying that its not cool with me i just lash out and say something worse. or like play fighting. when i start to actually get hurt, my automatic response is to become more aggressive and hurt the other worse. im tired of just being this way. i probably just need a therapist instead of this dumbass blog. we'll see when im older.