hi again to Anyone !!

Lately I've been so and so

Such and such has been happening

Nothing and everything and nothing to talk about,, really

Relaying the same things over and over and over to no specific end

Because not much new is happening

'I am loved. I am loved. I am loved and wanted and my presence is enjoyed.'

I try to remind myself of that

I feel like isolating myself only makes things worse

I keep myself alone because I'm scared of doing something I'd regret

i hide and hide and hide and smother myself in lies crafted within the crevices of memories that have long passed by

Honestly I'm just sick of the self loathing bullshit and am looking forward to every new tomorrow I'll get to be in

Even if not perfect ,,

Even if not expected,,

it's something ,

it's alive, it's breathing.

and that's enough ,, really

I never wanted to be anyone great

I just wanted to be there,, yknow ?

And I'm glad, I really am glad that I'm still alive today

I just need to see it more,, I guess

That holding onto things that aren't here anymore is useless

I hate what happened,, but new things are happening and I think that's more important