Sim

I've known him for a solid 2 and a half yearsish now , slim guy , dreads , piercings , tats everywhere, makes music . We are friends I think ? I'm unsure he says he cares about me though but I don't know to be honest lulz . There's something about him though that kind of oddly always drew me in though? I'm unsure how I feel on him all I know is it isn't bad at all it's kind of in the middle but then goes off all over . 

I'm supposed to meet with sim in July and to be honest I'm kind of dreading it . I'm supposed to meet with him and get my tattoo with him and just chill with him but I don't know how it'll will go through. I don't know what to say to him , I don't know what we will actually do , this is my first time ever spending time alone with a man is that a good thing or bad ? Would this be considered a date or no? I don't know maybe I'm overthinking. 

I do find sim a very attractive man though but respectfully I'm good on that love stuff , it doesn't get me anywhere but like what if it goes go that way ? What if sim offered my birthday month with him cause he wants me or let alone wants to do stuff ? I can't read him very well to tell what he wants .