BPD

So when I went to see a psychiatrist about my autism, she told me I was presenting early symptoms of BPD (borderline personality disorder)

for those of you who don't know what that is, its a mental illness that severely impacts a person's ability to regulate their emotions. The loss of emotional control can increase impulsivity, affect how a person feels about themselves, and negatively impact their relationships with others.

So I spent a long time doing research on it and I found out I probably am, I have like every symptom of it. 

To be honest, I was kinda pissed to have to deal with a new mental illness as well as being Autistic and having ADHD (talk about neurodivergent) but I kinda don't care anymore. I just wanna like find a way to get better, to stop struggling every day of my life.

to be clear, I don't have a formal diagnosis, I just assume I have it based off of my research with my psychology teacher, my psychiatrist and my social worker who believes I might have that :P