And nobody cared. (he said he's sorry, we're all fine now)

i cried, 

i couldn't stop crying, 

hot heavy tears streaming down my face

shaking, practically convulsing 

trying not to make a sound.

sharp inhales, sniffling all the snot back up my nose

on that couch.

right there in the living room.

i shook, and cried, 

and

you did nothing

you just tried to reprimand him.

you tried to teach him a lesson.

and after snarling and blurting out angst-filled evasions

he caved, and said exactly what you wanted him to.

yes,

i'm sure his opinion would change that fast.

he's proven it time and time again.

seriously, when was the last time any of you said you loved me?

you only say it in response

when i bring it up.

when i used to say it.

i don't even want your love.

i don't even love you lot anymore.

you're just the people that surround me.

so it gets kind of lonely, i guess.