Pawn

"pawn is the weakest , can always be taken advantage of , often leading it to be knocked down but given a good path it can strive and even become a queen itself" this isn't about chess btw . 

I'm starting to realize instead of being stubborn tyrant was trying to guide me I mean was obvious the whole time he was trying to but I wanted to be so hard headed . Alot of people have tried to me and it maybe due to the fact that I have trust issues and etc so I push everyone away or just the thought of they haven't gone what I've gone through why should I listen ? Even if they haven't delt with what I have they still try to comprehend and still help is what I'm noticing. 

I see small progress as a I go along I won't lie I do mess up a lot or crashout but I've been able to regain myself, be able to actually confront my mess ups and apologize or at least try to if the person doesn't let me . I notice my mess ups and think "what could have I done differently" sucks I can't change the past tho weather that be dating someone , past friendships I've ruined , or just even lil dumb stuff but you can't change the past only learn for it n am I learning from it alright as I grow up . 

Heres a lil drawing of myself or at least what I think I look like without makeup, unsure I don't really know what I look like to others or in gen . 

Def should have added more eye bags tho LULZ

(Please show up please show up , it's not showing up for me and I'ma look really slow yapping about this drawing while nothing shows .