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You ever just do exited for something or promise yourself something and when the day comes nothing special actually happen and it's just sad that like you have been waiting for this moement just for it to be an average day! And I cant think of anything to write anymore now! It's not like bad or anything it's just not at its best which makes sense because feeling good is a rare feeling now cuz when I'm happy and giggaling and stuff I realized I'm smiling and it's an emotion and it can be controlled by chemicals in my brain and it sucks! I'll be mad over this fact and I can't change it and it's not dangerous or whatever I don't know what other people feel!