20250402_SpaceHey_Ramble.txt

Heyy, I was in doubt if I actually would start a new entry, since the thing I am about to write is probably old news even for someone that is reading my blog for the first time, but for documenting reasons let´s do it:

I just had an amicable interaction with a friend and now I am thinking: did I act weird? Did it looked like I wanted to end the conversation (I didn´t)? And the list goes on... She and two other friends also added me on Instagram, which is a good sign they don´t dislike me. Honestly, it made me pretty happy that people want to add me after discovering I have social media, I have no idea why someone would like to get closer to me, be it online or offline.

I also already had two out of three tests this week and another one two weeks ago... My preoccupation? Disappointing the teachers... I was once a better student... Actually only a little better, since the main thing that is hindering my studies is something that has always been present, the only difference is that here the subjects accumulate a lot more in less tests, which isn´t compatible with my "only studying the day before and in the dawn" tactic... I really hope this won´t be time I will face the consequences of procrastinating, or better said: I hope I will never face consequences that aren´t stress and less sleep time, let´s see how this goes :P.

Now you might think I am really having fun in the time I procrastinate... Not really, most of the time I am obsessing about my appearance and cosmetic procedures, while feeling bad comparing myself to people that have my ideal appearance :D I even know how to dodge the ChatGPT restrictions and make it talk about my appearance lol.

Since I don´t have the money to just do the procedures I want to, all I can do is just to imagine how it would be if I had that appearance, how much more comfortable I would feel, how I would actually go after my dream of fame... And then I remember how much homework/how much I have to study and quickly try to understand and finish it, after all I want to please the teacher and be able to explain the subject if someone wants help. I think that´s it, now, if you don´t mind, I will choose a music and walk on my blue carpet, byee!!

Music of now: Beethoven Virus - Extended