Sigh ...

FUCK THEM!

God damn. I just want to hug my friend when they hurt just sit and listen. And just give them... Physical affection. It's my love language. Even though it doesn't seem like it. 

But... On the other hand. This other person. I feel like they are someone else's. They could decline. Witch I know could be hard. But you hangout with them multiple time a week. Every week. I never even know it happens. But you just. Leave me. To hangout with people who have despised me for so long. AND STILL DO!? But you have more fun. More opportunities. With both of them. I get it's harder to do something with me.... Just give me a chance. I asked like a week in advance. But they asked on Friday. So them it is. Maybe I'm just sad. Or maybe I always feel like you love anything else more than me. It's just something weird.