just not lucky

i'm just not stronger than destiny, i can't pull more than the universe lets on. what good is anything good i do if i'm simply not in the right place and i don't know the right people? 

doesn't matter i feel more attractive than i ever did before, doesn't matter i know how to use my creativity and my narratives makes sense - my drawings look how i used to see them in my head. it simply doesn't matter. i am far too far, too stuck. i am trapped. 

held back.