I dont really know how to start this, but this is just gonna be a rant about relationships. Since I started college I havent really made any friends...I have my roomate (who is amazing and I love) and my best friend from highschool (who decided to go to the same college as me). I love them both and they are definetly enough for me, but I feel so lame for not making any friends since I've been here. There are people that I like but no one that I would actually hang out with outside of class. I might be too picky but I do have standards for what I look for in a friend.
- No drugs (AT ALL- this is for personal reasons)
- Isnt too crazy?
- Has similar interests
- Cares about school (not a requirement but I tend to get along with ppl who care about school)
- Dosent want drama
- Is nice and gets my sense of humor???
idk...I dont think thats too much to ask but ¯\_(''•_•)_/¯ ~(idk)
Anyways I've been to clubs to try and make friends but a lot of the clubs interfere with my class schedule so I can't really go consistantly. But I don't just want another friend (eventhough it would be so amazing) recently, I've also been thinking about whether or not I want a boy/girlfriend. I have trouble keeping up with people over text especially if I don't see them in person often. Most of my interactions are in person, so it would have to be someone that I can see at least once a week or once every two weeks. I would absolutely love to have someone that shares the same interests as me, or at least can understand/tolerate them. Im not asking for much I think? idk my standards for romantic relationships are the same as they were for friends but just a little more... (I colored them from most-least important, darker=more important, lighter= less important)
- Again no drugs- I cant budge on this
- I would prefer if they were christian
- Shows interest in me (bare minimum(˃̣̣̥ᯅ˂̣̣̥))
- Isnt too overly masculine, like in a bad way...like I dont want someone that will call stuff "gay" as an insult or be bothered by things that are considered feminine
- Isnt too sexual, I really dont care about that type of stuff and I dont want my s/o to be too consumed in it either
- Wont bash me for the stuff that I like
- My parents like (or at least my mom)
- Has similar political beliefs as me (dosent have to be the same, but can hold healthy discussion)
- CAN TAKE CARE OF THEMSELF- GOOD HYGIENE
- Is a little nerdy (not a requirement, but its kind of endearing bc I'm a little nerdy too! If someones too cool(?), I have trouble keeping the conversation flowing smoothly)
again, I dont think this is too much to ask? but maybe it is? idk I dont feel like I can budge on some of these things...anyways. Im constantly battling in my head over whether I should try to get a s/o or just leave it alone for now. Like, I want one but I feel like it might drain me somehow? I want to be the best gf I can be and I often feel like im not good enough for my hypothetical s/o. I feel like if I ever were to get in a relationship I would end up neglecting them, and I would never want to do that, which is why i'm conflicted. I think I need to work on my communication skills before I can do anything, but aughhh I would love to love someone! I havent been in a real relationship ever- only online ones (both with people who lived in the same rea as me but went to different schools, I got to see one of them in person while we were dating somewhat often, but I never saw the other one bc we started dating at the beginnning of the pandemic). But it would be so awesome and cool to feel those feelings again and to care for someone like that again. lolol sorry if this was too much but I actually might add on to this more o to this later! kk bye!
ok- im back, its the same day lolol I just wanted to talk about this a little more I guess. I think I just wanted to say that I dont want a s/o all the time, like im not desperate for one and I dont go out searching for one- like ever. But a couple times a week (or less) I think about how it might be nice to have someone like that in my life, someone to hold hands with and talk to, OR we dont even have to talk! Just someone to hold comfortable silence with lolol╮ (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.) ╭! More than anything I just want someone who enjoys me for me, not anything sexual! Just cute innocent love! I want to suprise and be suprised by romantic gestures or heartfelt things, I just dont really want to be looked at sexually...
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