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i feel like i have a problem. when i have a friendship, why do i always end up feeling the urge to end it? i mean, i enjoy spending time with my friends, but at some point, there’s this unexplainable feeling. like i just need to end it. and the urge gets stronger day by day.
or is it just me?? do i want to end it because i start seeing their bad side? idk. but it’s kinda weird that someone like me, who actually wants friends can feel this way. i mean.., i really do want to have friends, to spend time with them.
or… maybe i already know the answer? maybe i’ve been blinded by memories, thinking they’re different, when in reality, they’re just like the others… yeah maybe? but why? why do i keep talking to them? why do i still help them?
can someone help me figure this out? is it because i need attention? even i don’t understand what i want. but i guess i should just end it, right? i mean.. by just stop interacting together?? maybe that’s the right choice. maybe it will be worth it.
29/03/2025
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Dio
I'm the exact same. I even went as far as changing my social media and phone # to cut ties with anyone I've ever known.
Currently I don't have any close friends because of it, and I have less than 5 friends total (whom I talk to occasionally).
I think I was like this because I was subconsciously a perfectionist. Whenever I saw a trait in my friend that I didn't like (aka they weren't perfect), I had the urge to end the friendship altogether.
Now, I think that being a friend means accepting them as a whole, the good and bad. Being a friend means communicating with each other to find common grounds. It was never about finding the "perfect" person for me to become friends with. It was about finding someone I'm willing compromise a little bit with.
i think i might be like that too, the moment i see something in a friend that rubs me the wrong way, i start thinking “is this even worth it?” i guess i also expect too much, maybe without realizing it. and yeah, maybe friendship really is about accepting the flaws too, not just the fun parts. but tbh it’s hard. thanks for sharing ur thoughts, it helped me reflect a bit
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meloca
SPeaking from my experience w this feeling, when I'm friends with someone and the friendship starts to get serious, or I begin to like them a lot, I ALWAYS get the urge to just block them. I thought a lot about it, and I think it's bc they become so important to me that I start feeling afraid they'll leave me. So, if I leave first, I won't feel the pain of their absence. I personally have pretty abandonment issues, idk if u have it too.
I hope u get to understand yourself better with time.
And don't push your friends away out of fear like i did!!!
i get what you mean, and maybe that’s true for some people, but i don’t think.. that’s the case for me. i think i actually just hate them. idk if it was always like this, but now i feel like i just need to slowly fade away and cut the friendship off. maybe.. that’s the right choice for me.
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VAL★★
Hi I just joined here
I have the exact same thing w my friends
I think it’s bc when I first meet someone,I try to be nice and friendly but when I relax,I see their flaws and it makes me annoyed
Hope it helps
yeah i get that.., do u usually stay friends with them even when u start feeling that way? or do u just let the friendship fade?
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