It felt weird

Today was one of those days where everything seems difficult, even the smallest things, and nothing seemed to go right.  And all day I've been getting really irritated with myself for making mistakes and forgetting things, which I knew was not right because it's totally ok to make mistakes and forget things sometimes.  And to top it off, while making dinner I accidentally burned myself taking the rack out and yelled f**ker loud enough for the neighbors to hear.  It's one of those days, but well... I'm still here, and I'm fine, and I know this will pass. 

I got a text earlier from a friend inviting me on a hike on Sunday and out to lunch after, which is normally something I'd be down for, but it felt weird.  The way he worded it was like, "a bunch of us are going and doing this thing", but there was no actual invitation.  Maybe I'm reading too much into it, but it just felt like he didn't really want to invite me but maybe his wife made him or something?  Who knows, it just felt weird.  And things have been awkward between him and me lately, because last time we saw each other, he was venting a lot of about work.  So I gave him some encouragement and he thanked me and gave me a big hug after, which wasn't unusual (we've been friends for six years).  But then the next day, he apologized for hugging me and said it could have been inappropriate.  So I guess maybe he got an idea in his head that he was giving me the wrong idea (which I had no such idea whatsoever), or maybe he had the wrong idea.  Anyway, I think I will not go.  I don't even think I want to respond.  After all, there was no question like, "would you like to come?" Or anything.  So yeah.

Also that recruiter (see yesterday's blog) tried calling me today and I missed it because my carrier flagged it as spam and then he texted me and asked me my availability but I didn't respond until after work and then he didn't answer so.  That's probably not going anywhere.  That's fine, though.

However one thing that made me lol today was the latest episode of Apothecary Diaries.  I will never look at frogs the same way again. 💀And I'll leave you with that.