Whered my art whimsy gooo

I was looking back at a lot of my old notebooks recently, and i remember when i was disappointed in a lot of these pieces or even now i look back and can recognize what i think its objectively bad for my own art journey standards, but one thing i excelled at was certainly my imagination and ability to just draw for the hell of it. I hold art so dear to me and its the only thing thats stuck with me my entire life, but as i get older and i realize that theres less and less places for artists and less and less money to make as-well, i feel like its slightly affecting my motivations. This year i took an AP art studio class where you have to pick one 'theme' of sorts and stick with it all year, my dad took the same class as a kid and told me he dropped out, but i stayed because i thought it could be an excuse to make all the comics i wanted and would give me some purpose, if i did good in this class, got a good grade on my art, that would be swell. As the year has gone on ive gotten so tired of analyzing every work that i make even tho i know im not graded on my art style, but rather the intent and the emotion behind it, but with deadlines for pieces i was supposed to enjoy and with my art style changing so much over the course of the year, there is not much emotion behind it anymore, now its just drawn because its to late to change my theme now, granted i have changed my theme a little and made a lot of me centered emotional ish little strips rather than random stories which has helped a bit, im currently working on a 'Man or Muppet' inspired piece and im VERY excited about it. But overall i am learning to draw what i enjoy on the side as well, i found a lot of my old batman art from when i was twelve, and boy it was terrible but it gave me something else to redraw, and now im rewatching the old batman things i used to love aswell and its very fun and healing, i also found some art from the summer and i could feel the love and energy that i poured into just silly little pieces, i miss it and i want that energy back. School is killing me as an artist real time, but maybe summer will bring back some whimsy, i also signed up for just a regular talented art class and my teacher and i planned for me to take a different ap art class as a senior so next year i wont really have any pressure to work on anything other than a few projects we do as a class, i will probably start a lot of my work for senior year next year tho, the only difference in that Ap class is that theres not really a theme needed and youre also allowed to draw licensed characters rather than make anything brand new, which is definetly my kinda class i think. no matter what tho, I am proud of my art journey and i will continue to love what ive grown up doing