angels are invisible to keep us sane

a lot of the times when im alone in my room I feel watched, even though I fully know that I am alone here.. atleast with a biological body.. do you ever think that feeling you get of being watched could be an angel watching you?.. is it paranoia or am I really not alone?. ive never been the most religious person.. I sleep through religion class because it for some reason kind of makes me anxious. but what if the divine is here?.. maybe im not insane, maybe there really is a mythical creature there, watching me. watching us. sometimes the air is too heavy, sometimes the silence is too silent to be true. my brain gets quiet, rarely as it does. I quickly look behind me when im sitting at my desk.. and I catch a glimpse, just to realize its the shadow of my wardrobe. sometimes when im sleeping in complete darkness the shadows create unsettling shapes. is that really a coincidence?.. sometimes I feel judgement from a source I cant put a name to. I dont know if its my mind playing games with me, or really an angel judging me from above the heavens.. if I ever saw them with my mortal eyes, I dont think id never be the same again. I would wake up with feelings I could never describe with words.  I want to know the truth but I know the truth is an irreversible path that I cannot go back from if I ever decide to take it.. I want to discover what really is. what the truth is. but maybe the truth knows me far too well for me to deserve to know.. thanks for reading ^^..