Day 15 of i- CARTI MY EVIL TWIN! CARTI MY EVIL TWIN!!!

I'm yearning unfortunately. No particular reason, just had a writing session so now I'm in the mind of my character. More on that later. I got a bit high today so didn't accomplish much. This story is gonna be so bussin. I love The New Sound and it's based on that so that's probably why.

Write - I did just have a writing session and I know the relationship in the greep album is one sided but i kind of wanted to make the character in my story and his love interest a different kind of one sided. He wants to be more than a customer to her and she wants to protect him but she doesn't see it as a romantic thing. I think that would be interesting! Excited to write the next chapter.

Read - I wanted to read today but I was so high. I couldn't take it in so I just decided not to.

Draw - i was thinking of doing like daily comics and that would be cool if I had a character for those. I drew one of my friends and her character was really like perfect for the comic setting but like what if I show her and she's like "why am I the main character in your comics??" I need a way to represent myself. I don't know how though... fursonas are perfect for this because like animals are easier to draw for me. I can draw animals very quickly i think. I'm not in the mood to share my drawings rn. Maybe tomorrow, maybe when I start my comics, who cares? I think I draw well when I'm high or when I'm sober but I'm in a more rigid mind "Oh let me not draw that! I'll fail" but when I was high I was like "I could draw this!" I could NOT but I tried over and over again and eventually was satisfied. That gave me a confidence boost for life because now I know what I'm capable of!

Cards - mostly just repeat of charlier cuts, I did half of a Faroah shuffle. Literally the most unimportant part of it is what I have nailed down. It can look effortless but it takes a lot to get it done. The easy flourish at the end is what people think is difficult, no that's easy. One of the first things I learned. What I somehow did was transition the Faroah into a one handed riffle shuffle. Other than that, not a lot of practice. I contacted this magician on tiktok like hey where do you learn your tricks and she left me on read BUT I respect that. Am I wrong??? A magician never reveals their secrets. If i were practicing magic on the side you'd never know. So just assume I am doing magic spells and shit whenever I write this segment.

Language - I did Spanish sort of last minute but I kept my streak alive. If i let it die today, I'm a horrible human being. This person who I have a friend streak with they messaged me like "are you alright, I'm here to talk to you so you don't green out" no, I couldn't let it die! I almost got a flawless lesson but I made a small error! Actually so upset. Damn. I could've gotten a perfect! STUPID APP. I forgot immersion today too. I had jerma on all day.

Media - i watched the karate kid again. Comfort movie about karate but also about how that is an art it's meditative and can unite people and that is ultimately the main character's goal. Then also jerma.

Ramble - I love Jerma so much guys. Also I'm checking my diary rn to look for topics and I quote "CARTI MY EVIL TWIN!! CARTI MY EVIL TWIN!!" dude... what am I on? Oh I know... but why?? I didn't listen to that today. I distinctly remember listening to Richard D James album. Jerma makes me feel comforted though so I always watch him when im high or even drunk. He gives Columbo vibes! I'd watch Columbo but I can't process that high same with community. Coming down was great I listened to an album called Black Pleasure. Listen to it, it's one of the greatest albums ever made. In exchange for you having to hear "I was so high! I did pot" all day, I give you an album recommendation. Black pleasure by Cities Aviv.

Anyway, good night!! I'm gonna sleep. This made me sleepy to write it.