Escape

Please somebody help, I can't get out of here.

what do i do to get out of here.

im so scared. im so scared. im so trapped and so scared

stop screaming, stop screaming . stop screaming at me

you backed me into a corner

its my fault its my fault right its always my fault its anyones fault but my own

im scared

i feel like a little kid.

i feel small

i felt so small backed into that corner.

i feel like its happened before

i remember that happening before

you backing me into a corner

im scared

what am i supposed to do

i have nobody

i have no one

i have nobody to save me

im so scared

somebody get me out of here

what am i supposed to do

i wish i could record what you said

you called me a spawn of the devil

i wish i recorded your screams

you hit me

you pretended to hit me

you hit a bag near me

and yelled and yelled and said it was my fault

its always my fault

its anyones fault but my own

its not abuse its a lesson.

those were your exact words.

it is not abuse. it's a lesson.

my life is never going to be good

it's just better by myself

everyone is saying i'm self destructive when i just want to be alone

i just want freedom

i want safety

and you said i was safe here, mere hours ago

i keep flinching and replaying that moment of me backing down the hall, you chasing me with a wooden spoon.

im scared

i feel like a little kid

so powerless

so meaningless

so unloved

i have nobody

i have nobody 

i have nobody

i have nobody

nobody is going to save me

i'm covering my ears, as if that stops the thoughts

all you guys have said is screaming through my head

i feel like i'm nothing

i feel so fucking nothing

i'm nothing

and i will never ever be anything

but it's my fault right.

i just want to get out of here

i wish i could escape.