It's... going?

Date: 25 march 2025 

An update on the mormon guy is him and I have been hanging out like normal. We know if we continue liking each other for a longer time (so far it's been maybe a couple of months) then we will have to bring it up to his maybe not so supporting parents, but if not, if we lose feelings or something of the sorts then it's good that we're waiting with telling them cs then there's nothing to tell. I don't really like viewing it that way, but it's true, feels like it would be way easier if we didn't like each other. Still I'm gonna try to make this work and I won't spend the time I have with him worrying of what will inevitably come, telling his parents or ending whatever we have. 

On a more positive note, we're having a sleepover this friday, it was his idea. We usually hangout on fridays so that's nothing new, but just him sleeping over we've never done before. He has slept over with some other friends in my house but then we we're grouped and there wasn't much one on one time. The one point of the sleepover when the others had gone to bed he kissed me, so now that we will be alone together the WHOLE time idk what will happen. One thing that has progressed since I confessed to him is that I no longer need an excuse to touch him. Before I used to always say that he had the best spot in the cough and so I needed to sit where he sat, or that I was cold and needed to be close to him, excuses, excuses u get it. Now I don't really care abt that cs I mean he knows I like him? It would be weird if I did try to come up with an excuse I think.

Another thing abt this sleepover is that Idk if I should get one mattress or two. EVERY time we have had a sleepover we have slept in the same bed, but even so there has always been the option of us sleeping in separate beds. Now idk if I should still bring another mattress bcs what's the point? We're still just gonna end up sharing the bed. However I don't want him to feel like he doesn't have a choice cs I mean ofc he does, I just don't want to carry an extra mattress down if it won't be used. Anyway we'll figure it out.

Now my food has gone cold so that might be a sign to stop typing. Happy International Waffle Day. 

- Elliot