March 22nd 2025

Shi I'll be honest I didn't think I would live this long especially with everything that has happened to me it honestly crazy , yeah I'm still homeless and will be going place to place again (if I can even find places this time ) but I'm still alive . 

There's a lot I do obliviously need to work on not just health wise but good for the mental too , I need to detach myself from him in any form of way which I think once I fully do that I'll be more motivated to do things or even get out of bed.  I need to get back to working out it felt like I could do anything having a schedule and working out daily n nightly . 

Most important thing id say I need to focus on tho and I'd be more happy is me fing around. Its genuinely a bad habit. Im not lust filled so I'm not thinking about well you know that when it's more so they kind of give me attention and "love " even though I don't want anything to do with that love but it fills something temporarily till I lie and say one day something they did bothers me and distance myself breaking apart of them . I need to stop that .