I'M TIRED OF THINKING ABOUT OTHERS

Odd title choice, I know. I don't care. I hate overthinking uptight morals. This whole purity race. People fighting on how to get the most goody two shoes points. I DON'T CARE ANYMORE. Life is hard enough as is. Do I wanna treat people like garbage? NO! There's only so much I can fit on my plate as a human being and I'm not gonna feel bad for the tiniest slip up. I'm not gonna feel demonized for petty arguments anymore. I don't want to keep up with the latest drama. I'm tired of walking on eggshells. I'm tired of the pandering. I'm tired of the overthinking. "Oh goodness me I hope I don't offend you over this meaningless thing." As if either party, including myself, would pass away at the slightest offense. I'm sick of reading through lengthy ahh DNI lists. I don't think I could make one myself, I barely talk to people as is or make notes on them as is.

I WANT TO HAVE FUN IN MY OWN LANE. I want to LIVE in my own lane. I'm not going to feel bad for not being in the morality rat race to appear like a good person to society. Yeah no, I'm not perfect, I'm not gonna act like I haven't done anyone wrong cause I have at one point in my life. Oh this person is bad, oh this person is good. We're human, we're gonna have conflict. That's okay. 

Thank God for the life I have right now. Thank God I ain't caught up in allat dinky finky ahh mess. Like holy... Double it and give it to someone else, I just wanna focus on what's ACTUALLY around me. Like excuse me for not stressing myself out to please other people who don't even have a second thought about me. I just don't like all these expectations... and hypocrisy. No I'm not gonna feel bad for not aligning with SOMEONE ELSE'S good person's standards. No, nope, nuh uh. There's only so much I can force into my brain, I don't wanna fill it with dull chatter.