Yesterday was a good day.

So I'm currently in exam week, and it's been really stressful. These past two months, I've been experiencing some relapses and depressive episodes, and it had been so long since I had felt so good. I've had low points, and I've had my LOWEST points, but I really thought it was getting better. I know recovery isn't linear, and there are ups and downs, but this down was really hard on me because I was starting to feel like I was back at square one and hadn't gotten out. Yesterday helped me remember that it's just another rough patch on the road and brought some hope back. Although I'm still not fully okay, my day yesterday made things a bit better for me.

I had two exams that afternoon, so I woke up early to study at home. I had lunch and left for school (I have the afternoon shift). It was raining a lot, but I was lucky enough to make it almost completely dry to school after an hour of public transport. It sounds small, but for me, it was already something. I took my first exam, which I was very worried about, but it actually went amazingly. We had a two-hour break until the next exam, so a few of my classmates decided to go to a nearby mall to bowl. I wasn't really sure because I don't connect with anyone in my class, but these few were super nice, and although I couldn't pay for my own game, sometimes they would let me bowl for them in their games. Even though I was hesitant and insecure about it at first (because I suck at bowling and was afraid to make a fool of myself), I actually managed to end up getting two strikes. Every time I did, they would high-five me. Later, we went back to class, took the last exam of the day (which I'm pretty sure I aced), and I got out earlier, so I got home early and was able to study a bit more. I know it sounds insignificant, but to me, it was a lot. It was the first time in months that I didn't go to sleep with a heavy heart. :)