#28 - FORGETFULNESS

What if I know the truth, but forget it when I need it the most? Crying unto my Lord over what my own hand had wrought. Only remembering when it's too late. 

Will I ever be saved in such a pitiable state? I fret that nay, for even in His mercy it feels like in my forgetfulness, I throw it all away. It feels like when He blesses me, I curse myself. The latter is as if I'm possessed by my foolish, ephemeral desires, incapable of being reined. 

I come and go, come and go, come and go... Will my soul ever settle? Perhaps only death will bring such, but in such instability, it feels like my fate is a coin toss. What can I do to remember? I never want to forget, for only in the remembrance of God can one find peace.