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I never used to be the type to hate someone for voting red. If my parents could vote, they'd vote red. I tend to claim to be left-leaning centrist. political quizzes say I'm libertarian (?) no a damn clue what that means, i hate labels.
There's been a hiring freeze in US universities. Because of Trump and his boyfriend Elon. I got a job offer the DAY my protentional employer offered me a job. They haven't rescinded the offer so I hope that they wont.
"jobs for Americans" MY BLACK ASS. the university's job board is down to 12 full time jobs from SEVENTY. in TWO WEEKS! DOGE is anti-working class. period point blank.
I keep forgetting to take my meds. My binge-eating disorder has relapsed. I dont have a car and i cant afford to move out right now. I'm going crazy. I dont think i can do this "grown-up" thing. I dont want to. I hate working, i hate dating, i hate having to form new relationships, i hate my body. I wish my partner would bully me into working out. I hate this God-forsaken, people-killing, inconsiderate, stupid, selfish, car-centric, individualistic ass COUNTRY. I'm so tired.
I want to elope so damn bad. im tired of talking to mediocre men that only care about having sex with me. they use me for their fetish and kinks while pretending to be my friend. i can name 3 people who did that with me. i cant stand most men. I'm going to only be friends with secure single middle-ages men and women who see me as more than my age and gender.
I'm just so disappointed in where i am right now. I wish i was better. prettier. funnier. healthier. smarter. im 22 damn years old and im just mentally stuck in the same place. yea i got a new job, but what else? still spending my free time on youtube and netflix, wasting away in the comfort of my room.
I told myself i'd run away to alaska but this damn president makes me want to run to another country. maybe germany? i know a couple people there. but I'd need to save up for the plane ticket. Maybe i can sell of most of my clothes to fund this. ive made $12 so far from selling my clothes. haha idk
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DeryckEleven
Universities get a good deal of federal funding, but an admin position is unlikely to be impacted by the various restrictions they’re putting on the funds. That doesn’t mean it’s guaranteed to be safe from cuts, but it’s much safer than a research position.
Good luck!
thank you!
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nana_fsg
My situation isn't exactly the same, but I understand a bit how you feel; I hope things get better for you soon #_#