Day 11 of taking it the veteran way

I used to semi recommend albums on my bulletins. They used to all be random album titles so uhh I'm gonna do that here. Today I want to recommend Suicide by Suicide. Amazing electronic group, somewhat experimental but they had this interesting atmosphere and even their more conventional music still sounds really eerie but their self titled especially sounds eerie. Anyway today was good! One of the better days I've had! One of the mutuals, Mulch Lover asked about my yearning and I'll talk about that Sunday but like it's toned down today so thats awesome! I was really... well yk I got shit done, I wasn't exactly productive tho.

Exercise//Health - I ate really well today because oough yesterday was horrible for my eating. I slept hungry, there was food but it was too late to eat yk so I just left it and I went on a walk in the morning, i felt like i was gonna pass out, I was so tired. It was a great walk tho. I wonder why I felt so faint... BECAUSE I FORGOT BREAKFAST. Yeah I actually forgot to eat breakfast and i actually almost passed out. Eat your three meals please, chat. Today I ate well tho and I exercised the ISCARIOT way the kimber the glock the miniature. Okay no I just mean i took a walk, they're always walksmaxxing as the kids would say and I've been walking a lot with my dog and with my family and shit in the mountains. Also that was a reference to a JPEGMAFIA Song "we can take this the veteran way, the Kimber the glock" and I listened to Veteran by Peggy on my walk and maybe that's suited for a more intense walk but the walk I took was more scenic. Last time I listened to death grips and it was so perfect. Money store... I forgot Bottomless Pit existed even tho that would've been perfect and I didn't have Ex military saved then.

Language Learning - I learned Spanish, finished up the clothing unit and I got my longest duolingo streak ever. 50 days! You don't need to applaude... my goat who I'm friendstreaking with high fived me. EVERYONE SHUT UP! EARL VERSE ON REALLY DOE. What a great verse, I love Earl! Some Rap songs is a comfort album for me. Everyone listen to some rap songs. Oh yeah I did immersion and I didn't understand a single thing in the video and i was really trying but dawg I think that was too difficult.

Writing - I didn't write. I had to organize things... I had to cancel a Writing project or postpone whatever. Idk really it depends on the other party because I needed to organize my writing schedule so I did and I'm reviewing something different. Idk if I'm blogging tomorrow, might need to take notes. I haven't written my story in a while either, damn.

Reading (TW FOR VIOLENCE SPECIFICALLY TOWARDS WOMEN) - more Malcolm ofc. What else? What stuck out to me today... not much if I'm being honest. More misogyny. This is really gross. Malcolm spoke about his time as a hustler and that's not gross, he did that for survival mostly, I'll get to that later but he mentioned his friend who's a pimp who tried to shoot Malcolm because something happened and the pimp's girlfriend got upset and started not attacking Malcolm but like yelling at him and Malcolm was like "Sammy's (the pimp) one weakness was that he could never shut a woman up" and that was so gross. Yuck yuck yuckkkk. Sammy tried to shoot Malcolm after that and like uhh yeah dawg why are you beating his girl???? Not saying that's like his job or anyone's but it's just like fucked up to not only hit someone, hit a woman and gets worse when you hit your friends gf which is horrible but also like "lemme do jt because you can't handle your relationship" whatever, it's good to critique Malcolm but I never want to get too into it. There are black people who have done terrible terrible things but compare the scrutiny they get to the scrutiny a white person who did the same thing gets. I just think it should be equal, it sucks that some amazing showcases of black excellence will get overshadowed by scrutiny. So I want to find value in what Malcolm says but I will always criticize him on some aspects.

Anyway yeah, the hustler thing, he mentioned how he Met so many talented black people and in a better society they'd be things like mathematicians or scientists but they're pimps, or thieves or drug dealers and ITS STILL LIKE THAT! smart people who are black or poc getting pushed into criminal enterprise because of things they can't control.

Media - Big day for media. I watched a movie called Cool World and it sucked. 90s era Brad Pitt was in it tho so that was nice! But the actual movie sucked so bad. It just wasn't compelling it was like Roger rabbit with the real vs cartoons and in the cartoon world there were like animations on screen at all time like "DID YOY FORGET THIS IS CARTOON WORLD" anyway this dude turns down a date with a gorgeous women who shared interest in him for a cartoon woman... that's embarrassing. Like.. not a good movie btw. Watch wizards instead.

Then I watched Community. 2 episodes one about Glee club and that one was so funny to me and then one where Troy and abed became normal again. I wasn't too into it. Great episodes but I was busy eating and my food was heated and I held my plate wrong while watching and spilled hot oil all over myself sooo... that was painful and distracting.

Read flowers of evil the first volume which I think Deniz recommended and then my one friend recommended Blood on the tracks and listen... it's named after my fav Bob dylan but they made the mom evil... I don't think that would be good for my mental health. Flowers of Evil is great tho I would never steal a woman's clothing. I did once steal someone's underwear on accident, it's kinda weird we swapped in the gym without realizing so he has one of mine and I have one of his. But he's so me with like literature in high school I was like "nobody gets Hamlet like me" I'm excited to read more tomorrow.

Ramble - these are usually based on my diary entries and today I wrote about something maybe a bit too personal to share here but like I wrote about how I need to leave the house more and shit. I need to distract myself and shit and sometimes that can be the solution just for a bit its nice to have an escape. Escapism is looked down upon but it's good sometimes, you don't want to think about your problems constantly that exhausting. I need an escape rn. I need to go on vacation again.

Anyway goodnight my hands hurt.