lyrics i relate to.

♡ 1. New chains, same shackles - $uicide boy$

,, another day waiting for death

Every day that I waste on my list of regrets

So I tell myself "It's okay, day after next

We'll make all these arrangements to

Change you can better yourself"

I know I'm wasting my breath as I inhale

I know I'm escaping my death as I inhale

I, I can't recall why I'm suffocating

My lungs are failing ''

♡ 2. Diemonds - $uicide boy$

 ,,What I hate most in this life is a long night

Four walls and no calls, and no lights

But the moonlight creepin' through the blinds

Ceiling fan on high spinnin'

I'm beginning to believe that

Tonight is the night dead by dawn

I'll shred my palms to the end of my arm

I'm spread and gone, embalmed

Put me in the dirt where I belong

Existence is overrated anyway

Fifty years later

They won't remember you're dead

Six billion people living as civilians

And I hated them all"

♡ 3. That just isn't empirically possible - $uicide boy$

,,I'm at my breaking point, I cannot take this shit no more

I'm ready to fucking explode

Open up, knock knock

Here comes the Glock cocked

9 milli, pop pop pop, oh no

Making a mess, my aim ain't the best

I guess I should clean this all up and go home''

♡ 4/1. Not even ghosts are this empty - $uicide boy$

,,Can I ever get a moment to myself?

Each moment that passes is fleeting

I try and I try to escape my own life

At this point y'all should call me Houdini (Oddy, don't!)

It always ends up with me bleeding

Or so overwhelming I'm retreating

Back into the hole that I climb out of

It always ends up self-defeating

I'm addicted to sex, addicted to drugs

Really whatever will make me feel loved

I don't care what you thinking

Yeah, I don't give a fuck

I'm still out here shinin' as bright as the sun

And no matter how hard it gets

No matter how tough

Don't disobey when I say, "Give me the gun" (Give me the gun)

If I don't let my demons out to breathe

I'll end up with some horns or a pair of fucking wings

Come and visit me from time to time (From time to time)

To all them bitches I was ever with

Yeah, you're still on my mind (mind-mind)"

♡4/2. Not even ghosts are this empty

,,I just want to run away (away)

But all I ever do is run in place (in place)

The tears I cried it could've iced my chain (my chain)

And on the best days I can't feel my face (my face)"

♡5. Matte black - $uicide boy$

,,Maybe in the next life I'll come back as a nice belt, I don't know

There's a fine line between me and you

The biggest difference is I'll snort that shit and prolly puke"

♡6/1. Antarctica - $uicide boy$

,,20 years and it seem like a lifetime

I been hanging every day from a lifeline

While these fuckers had a dinner every nighttime

Smo-, smoking that dope off the foil, let me ball

Ho, please don't call, don't fuck with y'all

Spray paint the walls with blood and whatever"

♡6/2. Antarctica - $uicide boy$

,,My birth was an error

I am the Lord of Loneliness

I'll hold my breath, just spoke with Death

He said he hopes for the best

Told him I'm ropin' my neck

Then I woke up chokin' from the hole in my chest

Somehow I manage to function and hope

Every day, got a lump in my throat

That's them pills swallowed whole

Smoke a blunt and then fuck all these hoes

End up humpin' they throat

Get the fuck away from me, I hate all of you, faithfully

This world was never made for me

Thankfully, I'm trained to see past all the lies, the ranks, the scenes

I'll shank my knees, then walk the plank and freeze" 

♡7. OMG XD - Odetari

,,I just wanna be left alone

Every time you're around, you pull up the phone (phone, phone)

That's why I don't need to like a post (post, post)

But nah, you wanna let them know"

♡8. Brains out - Odetari

,,Fuck your brains out

Then I'll blow my brains out

Before I blow my brains out

I'ma fuck your brains out

I-I-I'ma kiss you on the mouth

Yeah, I'll blow my brains out

Baby, baby, baby, baby"

♡9. feelz - lil peep

,,I love you to the summer and back

It's not the winter, but you've frozen my heart

And got me warmin' up my liver

I would never put a knife in your back

The love I give her is kinda creepy, but fuck it

She orders and I deliver

I could never leave you alone

My little mama is mad at me at the moment

Know she's such a a prima-donna

Wherever you are is my home, you know I mean it

They say home is where the heart is

You're the reason mine is beatin'

I will always be here for you

And when I'm dyin' I pray to a higher power

Next to you is where I'm lyin'

Would you fuck me right on the floor?

I'm feelin' naughty

I wish to explore your features, secrets hidden in your body

I been feelin' like I don't have a choice

My only option

Watchin' me through the window as I whip up this concoction

Don't you ever take your life out of mine

I'll fuckin' kill you

Take you out to the bayou in the cabin with the mildew

And I'll leave you there for someone to find

My little angel

In your deepest darkest corners and I'm lovin' every angle

Baby, you got nowhere to hide, I'm comin' for you

Your parents could never fathom the level to I adore you

It's like Palestine up inside my mind, a deadly war zone

Quakin' inside my boots as you waken my every hormone

I'll give you everything I've got 'til I'm gone

And that's a promise

Unless you didn't want it then for you I'd be dishonest

I love you to the summer and back

It's not the winter, but you've frozen my heart

And got me warmin' up my liver

I would never put a knife in your back

The love I give her is kinda creepy, but fuck it

She orders and I deliver

I could never leave you alone

My little mama is mad at me at the moment

Know she's such a a prima-donna

Wherever you are is my home, you know I mean it

They say home is where the heart is

You're the reason mine is beatin' "

(its the whole song, + this one for me is abt a guy, but dont wanna change the prespectives)

♡10. Wasteland - Arcane 

I've held on for as long as I can

For the ones that I had to defend

I've been strong every day of my life

If she wants, death could take me this time

This world is a wasteland where nothing can grow

I used to have strength, but I ran out of hope

I know it's my fault that I'm here all alone

This world is a wasteland

Please let me go, go, go, go, go, go, go

If I could just lay my head down and rest

If there was nothing to fight or protect

Maybe then I could finally be free

Maybe death is like falling asleep