guess who's depressed again?

hey ya!! im starting to get really comfortable talking to u guys here n sharing my life experience (that is  not thatmuch cuz im 14 but fuck it)... well, tdy is being a really hard day, and its just 1:36 PM, yea my day is already fucked up, and imma gonna tell u guys what happened tdy (if u realet to any of this things u can comment to share ur life w mee!!)... well, every saturday i need to go to my english class, and its okei cuz i love to go there, but yesterday i really wanted to change something in mslf, so i cutted my hair, and its really pretty tho (remember this part cuz its important for the future events), coming back to tdy, i got ready for my english class, and my mom made fun of my clothes n hair (i always get sad n mad w it), but i ignored, and i was so nervous tdy that i bought  cigarettes n smoked for the first time, its really good btw, it made me feel call uk? but thats not big deal rn, cuz when i got home my mom was already stressed about something that idk, and when shes mad what she does........... SHE FUCKS W MY MENTAL HEALTH, and she screamend and hitted me, yelld, sweared, and other things, she called me homo, asshole, mutherfucker n more, she said that i have no future... n i ask u rn, is it worth to raise ur child w everything that u can give to them, but when they grow up and they do no turn to exactly what u wanted,u will fuck w ur child futurejust because theyy r not what YOU wanted to be?                      I'm gonna finish my vent rn guys, see yaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!