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i think i have become content with not talking to my old friends anymore. Or at least i'm able to not have it bother me. On one hand i kinda liked the depressing feeling it gave me. I used to be deep into depression a couple years ago and sometimes those times feel nostalgic. Your brain hasa a tendency to want to go back to that feeling. After therapy last wednesday, maybe it's all okay.

 Someone i don't really like popped up aswell, wich is someone i didn't talk to in a really long time. It srsly freaked me out. I thought it was weird that TH1Z GUY suddenly wants to talk to me again. It seriously P1553D M3 0FF, but moments after i was just okay. Idk. maybe things are not as bad as i assumed they were. I have some friends left that are ya know, actually good? Actually care?  Having a good safety net like that makes me less afraid. 

I know there isn't actually much to say here but idk i just feel like posting it. I mean my old friends literally told me that all they wanted was confirmation that i wasn't dead. And they got that information, not through me, but from someone else who i was still talking to. So i guess that means they don't have to care about me anymore. It sucks. 

anyway, i don't think i'll ever stop feeling this way though. At the end of the day, i am the poison that keeps making the same mistakes. The thought patterns and behavioural patterns. It never stops. It feels like everything good that enters my life R0TZ 4ND D135 inside of me. And it happens, over and over again.

Mood song: 0V3R&0V3R&0V3R&0V3R&0V3R&0V3R&0V3R