you.

I do not hate you

You ruined me or so I thought. I had thought that the end of us meant the end of me but I was terribly wrong. For a while I was broken, you had broken me, but after time had passed I became numb I spoke with people and I realized I wasn't in the wrong but you. Oh, you. You weren't wrong; you loved me but didn't handle anything best. Your time to me was begged and borrowed and mine for you endless, you seemed as if I was just a friend you called "baby" and told you loved which hurts. It hurts to see you on a game for 7hrs and barely text me it also hurts to know you flatly ignore me just because you didn't want to be lovey-dovey. You come to me with hurt and regret, "I miss you" written on your sorry face but I cannot forgive you for you didn't love me enough to be that sorry. You can say you did all you want but actions speak louder than words. I had to steal moments with you, you told me you loved me so why did you do all of it? I want November back, I want the gee I know back. I don't know you now and I can't even begin to read you. Be sorry and regretful all you want but you couldn't tell when I was at my worst, you checked up to be nice but never understood my sorrows or tried to begin to, but through all of it I loved you and I could've loved you for a lifetime if it hadn't been for your sorry interventions. I hope life treats you well and you learn to change for the better, never for the worse. I don't hate you, I never could, you gave me the best 3 months until a downhill spiral. But I do hope you change and I hope you find someone that could tell you wrongdoings and love you better than I ever could. 

I loved you, Gee.