11/03/25 - march break

Been a bit. Honestly I spent most of last week clawing my way to Friday and I barely remember it. Fortunately, though, I made notes of topics that crossed my mind, so I'm just going to chunk this out.

I think honestly it's been rough lately because we're coming up on one year since I've been in the hospital. Which is great, because I'm not there anymore, but the whole ordeal was rather traumatizing and something I've been working on extensively to process via EMDR; and that can only be done in smaller chunks due to my condition at the moment. Unfortunate, but I'm making the best of it.

I was supposed to have a test on molecular genetics on Thursday last week, as I had an orthodontist appointment (got my braces off yippee) Friday---the actual test day---but my teacher didn't end up writing it in time so I'm going to be doing it after the break. Not sure how I'm feeling about that. I kinda hope I get Monday to review a bit because honestly I don't actually have much time to study this week LOL. I also got my hair cut FINALLY. Back to a pixie cut. I wanted it short again in time for getting my braces off and my acne clearing up. I haven't had clear skin since I was like 10 so it's bee nice. I do have a lot of dark spots though, which sucks, but apparently the medication I'm on should help with that.

Sketchbooking has been... interesting lately. I feel really bad about everything I produce because it's not entirely "original," it's all just studies at the moment. Which isn't a bad thing, I guess, but it still feels bad. I dunno, it's not like I'm posting that work anywhere, it's just for me. I told myself I would get back into digital art over the break but now that I'm on break I don't see that happening. Though, I am hitting up the museum tomorrow as of writing this so I'm hoping to get some art done while I'm there. It'd be nice to sketch some dinosaur skeletons.

Found my dad's twitter. It was, to my dismay, incredibly easy. He's a twt blue user and all he does is rage bait, which is so fucking embarrassing dude. I try not to check it often but considering all the shit that's been going on in the states it's been hard to keep away. It would be funny if he were just some random guy. T be honest, if I didn't know it was him I'd think he's a bot LOL. Speaking of embarrassing my stepsister has been getting into some crazy social drama with her boyfriends. I don't want to air her dirty laundry out but it's ehhhh.... a bit ironic. She accused her boyfriend of being rude and not cleaning up after himself and I'm just like girl, you are the patron saint of being rude and not cleaning. Match made in heaven I guess.

Lately I've been missing Cali, like a lot. I think it's because the weather has been miserable, but I cant get the beach out of my mind. I want nothing more than to be by the ocean again. I've also been craving a trip to Europe, somewhere like Italy or France. Idk. 

This is all rather disjointed because I couldn't be bothered to consider flow. Just dumping my thoughts, really.

Song of the week (for last week): Satanized - Ghost