No. 5 - Jesus on the Telephone at 9PM

9:38PM - Monday, Mar 10]

There are very kind people out there, and today I met one of the nicest phone therapy people ever. Before calling I was thinking to myself, "I really wish I could talk to God right now, or have someone to talk to", because I wanted a positive influence and motivation, as I severely lacked it prior.

And it felt divine to talk to someone whose voice and advice was filled with thoughtfulness, understanding, and care -- elements that I appreciate dearly. And for it to be so interpersonal made me cry because as I detailed to them how I wanted to become a different person because I felt isolated by my own community, they remained neutral. They had genuine words for me, and though not knowing me, it felt like a hug from afar. Warmth that tended to my ceaseless, fearful thoughts of an unknown future. He was right, the unknown was scary but ultimately I am in control of what I think and do. And he wasn't sure what inspires people to be mean, sometimes its human nature to be catty, but his realness combined with his sympathy made a powerful impact on my day and future.

I don't find a lot of people like that whom I can rely on for advice, so finding Jesus on the telephone was an unexpected, but much needed surprise. He didn't even mention religion BTW. Was just a wonderful person who sounded like they were only hear to listen, and to assist.