why

why all my loved ones or just most of them are suicidal? ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡ i'm scared they're gonna die soon and i couldn't even say goodbye. i love them sm. i don't seem the type, but i do love people, rarely, but i do. knowing he's at the ER rn makes me bad, is also night. as i know he should come back tomorrow. i don't feel like going to school tomorrow, but i have to. hope he will get better soon... i don't wanna lose him, i would lose my mind and kill everybody.