swimming or drowning looks the same if you stop struggling

how does one plug up the leaking faucet in my brain nothing can stuff the leaking cracks and i'm just so tired 

pipes bursting flooding my soundscape with wallows 

though this water feels so heavy it also doesn't exist 

moisture only known to my body and mind my soul and heart ache in the presence of an empty void 

teetering between realty and depressive marine activity 

floating and sinking 

falling and stuck 

pushing and pulling and reaching and loosing 

why can't i find comfort in your eyes anymore 

toodles 4 now